u/Dangerous_Lie_6943

I hate that I have these conditions. I can’t understand if I’m struggling with adhd one day or bpd. It’s so draining when your mood is up and down from one minute to the next. My whole brain is a contradiction. Sometimes I don’t want to be around people but then feel lonely and want connection at the same time. The one thing I find the toughest is when I feel abandoned or not included then I quickly spiral and then my love for my mrs of nearly 10 years turns to I wouldn’t say hate that’s a strong word but like F you. Then thinking im not good enough. See they all give up on you in the end. You have only got yourself in this world and I go in to a dark place that’s hard to get out of.