I'm graduating from college at the end of the month. This was where I developed my ed and all that but for the past year I've been doing a lot better and really been trying to live in the moment and not get dragged down by the ED thoughts and behaviors. I've been the happiest this academic year I've ever been in my adult (and teen tbh) life.
I'm just really scared to graduate. I have no job lined up, and I know I'm gonna have to live at home with my parents for at least a few months before everything gets sorted. I'm gonna go from living close to my best friends and support system to being across the country and world from all of them. I'm gonna go from being mostly independent to being back at home. On top of all that, all the happiness and abandonment of ED behaviors has led to a signifgant amount of weight gain. I'm already planning the relapse for when I have to live at home. It feels like the perfect storm, and I know I can fight past it but I don't feel like I want to. any advice from people who've been in a similar situation? I know I should leave it all in the past but its so hard to get the thoughts out of my head