Thinking about stopping
Hi there - never posted on here but lurked for sometime. I started hrt in November and ramped up from 2mg oral to 6mg injection over the course of several months. I came out to everyone around me and my work. Initially everything was amazing; I felt more liberated and light with the odd bad day filled with doubt. Lately, I’ve been feeling more and more like a fraud or that this just isn’t worth it. My libido is shot, I wake up anxious about all I have to do to be “presentable”. I worry maybe I made everything up in my head all day and feel like I’ve trapped myself or something. I take any moment or sign of manliness on my part as evidence I’m not really a woman and I’ve made a mistake. To top it off, it feels like most posts here describe instant “relief” in some sense when starting hrt, but I feel my anxiety has probably worsened as I obsess over my appearance trying to look perfect before I go out.
Anyway, I’m just struggling with serious doubts and looking for support. I’m considering skipping some doses or going back to oral. Anyone else struggle with thoughts like this?