u/DannyAppleJackson

I seem very happy. I'm well liked, considered funny, and somewhat popular. I work a lot and do well at my job. I'm generally attractive. I used to model and have stayed in shape, because it's always been a part of my life. I was in a long term relationship with a woman that I loved and we got engaged. She cheated a lot after we got engaged, so many times that she couldn't count. We broke up and she refused to leave my house for months and I was threatened with lawsuits for not allowing her to stay. After she left rumors were spread about how horrible I am with allegations of drugs and abuse. I don't use drugs and never hit her. I was really looking forward to building a life together that she said she wanted, but wasn't ready for. I'd come home from work and she'd be out drinking and doing drugs. I wasn't really aware, but was told about it and whenever I confronted her she'd scream at me and cry. After we I finally got her to leave my house, I felt relief. The said rumors have caused me to lose jobs and made me almost entirely blacklisted from dating again locally. Depression set in. My friends didn't seem to have empathy and didn't want to be around me anymore. I saw a therapist to help with this, I had seen one in the past for about 9 years. The therapist did not help much, but suggested I may be on the autism spectrum without offering much else other than considering a diagnosis, which i was not interested in. So I am popular, doing well at work, thought of as "good looking". I have no real friends, no family, and some random people locally seem to hate me based on rumors. Ive become extremely withdrawn and unmotivated. What should I do? How do I bounce back? It's been like this for 2 years( the engagement ended 2 years ago, I lost my friends 1 year ago). Work is my only interaction with people outside of "empty" online dating