Missing you
M, I have made many mistakes in my life, but none have i felt so much regret for than for how ive failed you. I cannot put it into words just how sorry i feel for hurting you and pushing not only you, but everyone around you away. I know this apology is late, but i mean every word. You mean the world to me, and judging by how you handled the break up, i still mean something to you as well. I sincerely hope you can forgive me and my shortcomings. I promise that ill improve, already have to some extent. If this is goodbye forever, then so be it. I just hope you understand that i really did love you. Not a made up version of you in my head. You, the smart, incredible woman who made me feel like i belong somewhere, the woman i found mutual comfort with in each others presence. The woman who i wantesd to spend the rest of my life with. I miss you, M. And i really hope to see you again.