u/DapperSalt8095

Me ‘33 F’ him ‘30m’ was married for a year and a half deeply in love with him ‘30M’ , I dated many people and nothing compares to him. He and I have a very strong connection and a lot of chemistry and attraction for one another but we have had trouble handling conflict, we ended up splitting & didn’t resolve things for a few months, so I truly thought we were getting a divorced and during that time I met another man and started falling rather quickly for him. Our relationship moved fast and I liked him a lot than my ex-husband invited me to another countryand I accepted the offer and went back. We ended up making up and lived together for 3 months again there were multiple times of conflict that was really hard to deal with during that time but still wanted to work things out with my ex. I ended up coming home and started seeing the new guy once again and enhancing our bond. I was talking to my ex-husband and the new guy ‘31 M’ for the last 2 months, deciding on what to do and I’m constantly going back-and-forth on who I want to be with now I just found out I’m pregnant with the new man’s baby and I don’t know if I should get an abortion and go back to my ex or just accept this new fate of getting pregnant and be with this new guy. I can see my life unfolding with both of them. I like both of them a lot. I would say I’m more attracted and more in love with my ex, but maybe it’s just because I’ve known him for much longer but I keep missing my ex and I’m just scared that I’m making the wrong decision by walking away from him, im truly so in love with him even though there’s so many differences and having this baby with the new guy I don’t know what to do cause I haven’t known him too long even though I believe this new guy would make a great father, and there is more peace amongst our relationship. We don’t tend to fight as much as me and my ex, i know im going to be judged for my actions but i truly was in a high state of confusion & fear. & the thought of hurting either one breaks my heart. I feel like Im getting older and I just really wanna make a wise decision on who I end up with and start a family with.