Danpei is a great character who sticks with yabuki from the start to the end. He really does love yabuki and not just see him as a "money making machine".
However why are there no analysis or admiration for him in this community like other important characters like rikiishi , carlos , yoko. Sure they are turning points in joe's story..but danpei was like a father to Joe and Nishi
It's like sometimes i constantly wonder what's the purpose of life , how do i live it? What is the truth.
I have been getting such thoughts since like. My childhood and i have never come up with a permanent answer. I do not know what i seek. Happiness? Sometimes i feel extremely empty and therefore such thoughts keep arising.
Sometimes , in the past , i even went through this scary phase of despair where i questioned everything, felt unreal , scared. It felt like I was losing my sanity. Thoughts like ("how do i know is anything real , how do i know im real , how do i know im not born insane") ran through my mind and such phases created a lot of anxiety. I usually spend my days bed-rotting and avoiding action , i feel this "need" to keep overthinking and then exhaustion and pain and fear in my head
When i was younger , i was violent , quickly got angry but now , it's more of a quiet resentment. (I am diagnosed with bpd and acceptance issues , but i think i have quiet bpd)
Then i fall into many dilemmas. For example, I'm looking for some solution to life. Although i know (solutions) aren't permanent. This is how my thoughts usually go and how i spiral and split:
"Maybe the best explanation of life is fulfilling me and my desires
->
Hmm so i should probably build a strong identity
-> how do i intend to live my life?
-> eh i shouldn't care so much , its just life , i cant reason my life out , maybe ill live in detachment
-> how can i say that , am i a coward? I should devote my life to fixing the world. Do i not care about others? Am i evil?"
I'm tired of such stuff. I have been suicidal in the past but not anymore..
I'm still pretty young and I'm just overall confused and feeling empty about what to do?
These problems were still acceptable until i believed in god. But i kind of had a rebellious atheist phase and after that it's like all meaning in my life has died. I'm not able to force faith no matter how much i want.
For now. I'm just aware of my symptoms and try to force an identity(i have created identities like "base" , "student" "A" and "B") and am learning dbt skills online.
I hope I'm able to live well.
Thank you for reading my post.
As we know. TMS has struck down a lot of ashita no joe channels in the past and most recently the ost youtuber "joe yabuki" and yuki AD.
Has anyone thought of starting an archive (like Google drive?) with these osts (and posting the link here)if they still have those ost videos? This would prevent TMS from striking down our favourite osts.
Thoughts??
There was this youtuber named yuki ad. He used to have a lot of subscribers and made covers on ashita no joe music. Did he get banned or something? I'm unable to find him on YouTube. His covers were great and passionate, sadly i think no one archived them.