u/Darknierouk

I identify as aroace for a year and a half now and i have been very Happy about finding this Out about myself. But recently i wasnt so Sure. I still Go to school and i have a friend from elementary school there wich i now know for around 10 years. I dont really feel attracted to this Person but i wouldnt be offended If they make a move on me. And i might even consider beeing together with them. But i would never make a move on this Person. And the Problem i am having is If this Person would make a move on me, what i would do, because what If i am Not really looking them and this is Just a silly notion? And what does this make me? Would i still be able to consider myself as aroace or am i Something Else?

I Just wanna get some things of my mind Here. I think that romantic and sexual relationships are weird. Many people in my friend group that talk about Partners and Dating and such Always want certain Body proportions in their Partners. Why? Why is it important for a Person to Look a certain way? I dont choose Friends because of the way they Look, so i think its Strange to choose Partners that way. I also think that romantic and sexual relationships are so Close intertwined with each other. For me romantic Always was the Feeling side and sexual Always the Body Part. For me a deep personal empathic Connection with someone activly crosses Out the Option for any sexual Activity. Like, you have this wonderful emotional Bond and the Peak, the target of the relationship, is having sex. Something so simple and elementary to every species. I Just would Like some more Media representation of relationships where the whole Goal isnt that the two characters get down in the end. Why is everything i hear from other people about romantic and sexual love and relationships so dull. Like in every Media romantic love is Portrait as something so magical, so incredibly powerfull that it Beats the Powers of evil and such but nothing of this seems to exist. That really Bugs me. Why am i the one happier with my Feelings, or rather the Lack thereof, than the people really Feeling them? That Sounds so stupid. Finding the true Love in a magical way is something so many people want but why dont any of them feel the Things i feel Like i am Missing? Do the Things so many Songs and Films Show maybe Just Dont exsist? Really anoying all of this.