u/Darwiniscool_Bat1065

I honestly feel like I hate people very easily, like when I get in a relationship the line between love and hate is so thin, I know for a lot of people this is like a protection thing, like avoidant attachment but I reallly don’t think that’s the case for me, I’ve never made full relationships, I have constant distrust in people and it’s been this way for awhile, I don’t exactly think I feel bad because I don’t hurt the people actually, I just feel frustrated that even though I want a best friend or to fully trust my partner I can’t, because the moment I get close to someone the hate creeps in, and I start to view them in a very warped light. It’s so annoying, because I’ll struggle to give effort because of these feelings but I’ll still feel lonely later on and wish I could talk to someone, but at the same time I hate talking to people because In the back of my head I’m thinking of everything they’ve done to ever upset me even the tiniest bit. Sorry this is all over the place.