Feeling defeated, tips and help for feeling alone
So, this week my psychiatrist talked to me about the possibility of me being/having hsp, it was towards the end of our session so she gave me a kind of brochure to flip through and see what it means and we'll talk about it more at our next appointment.
I have been flipping through that brochure with tears in my eyes the whole week. I will not lie, I do see myself in what is described but it is the first time learning something about how my mind works that has only made me feel worse.
Growing up I was often called over-sensitive, to not take things so seriously lighten up, that I'm crying for attention. Sure people love the parts of me that also feels the positive emotions big, but the negative emotions often got comments.
It feels like now there is officially a brand on me that im over sensitive. I have always felt like I'm on the outside, one of my biggest fears is that I'll be left alone. It feels like any relationship platonic or romantic is one sided because I feel so much and I know i feel more. Now I feel like I should give up on all relationships, stop being a drain on the people i care about and give up any ideas of ever finding someone who would love me back as much as I love them. I love people, I love the people around me so much it hurts and I dont demand they love me that much all of the time but it feels so lonely.
Has any of you went through some similar thought processes? What helped you?