u/Dazzling_Roof2951

I guess I'm not gonna crack neet, it was my 2nd drop. I was always the topper in school. I've cracked Olympiads, topped in district exams. But then i went to allen for neet coaching, and everything messed up. The teachers were not good. And i got backlogs a lot. And i studied hard a lot but i couldn't complete the syllabus and messed up the exam. I got IISER and also I'll get veterinary very easily but don't know about neet. And I'm st, and i feel ashamed because I had promised myself to never use quota. And I'm scared people will judge me that I couldn't crack neet. I chose neet because of my father. But i want to join IISER and they won't let me, because i want to do phd abroad. They're saying then do veterinary because your life will be easy and salary will be good as well. I'm a girl so they're afraid. Everyone is just so interested in my life and happy may be because my academic level degraded

I felt like dying a lot of times and tried too but i don't have the courage and also i don't wanna make my family traumatized, so I won't. Because i love life and i wanna be away from toxic people. And live happily and travel. My brother has got degrees from both NIT and IIT. so i feel bad that i couldn't make my parents the way I used to before.