I went to see a psychiatrist last year and he gave me a bunch of pills that I threw out because I know I'm not depressed, I'm just like this always. He didn't listen to me at all. Didn't get the gist of what I was saying. He referred me to a psychologist who kinda kicked me out of her office because she didn't "have me listed and has another patient". She said she had nothing to test me for and to go search for my happiness and let me out, then went outside to look for a dude who wasn't there. I felt completely insane at that moment. Pouring rain, empty hallways and she was acting like something from a psychological horror. So I never went again.
I'd like to try this year with a vision because I feel like this is it. But do I go there and say I think I have this disorder? I know doctors hate that.