Never ending rumination
I just can't seem to fully let go because i don't want to forget you entirely. Usually after enough time things get better but i am still holding on out of hope i guess. The lost potential, everything felt so right, we've never even really tried.
It felt different in the beginning, but that's exactly how it goes with people afraid of deeper connection.
Next time i see avoidant tendencies surfacing i'm booking it outta there. I've really tried out of empathy and affection and now i'm receiving the receipt.
Several times i thought this is finally a point where the healing reached a pretty good amount of not hurting anymore but then we look at each other almost like nothing changed and it throws me right back. I need to completely close the door, i don't think we can stay friends, at least not right now.