am I the wrong one in the situation?
probably gonna delete this later I just need 1 or 2 replies pls. to shorten everything down me and my bf have been tg for almost 2 yrs. just a few months ago we broke up and got back tg. on my b day, he didnt get me any gift or card. now ik what ur thinking "ok? u dnt need gifts?" yes that is true however it is much valued to me since he hasn't gave me anything for any holiday or special occasion and always makes excuses. every year its also me giving but never receiving and I just want the gift giving to not be one sided.I tried to explain this but he gave me a crappy sorry and didnt text me for the rest of the night since he fell asleep. after that I grew a lot of anger, more things starting popping up to me bc as I thought I realized not only did I not get anything but no hang and also no goodnight? now I will admit at fault here, I did NOT communicate the day after my b day and just bottled up my feelings and didnt talk to him however the day after that I opened up and I was met with defense and misunderstanding. he did not understand at all that all I wanted was to constant goodnights, a gift here and there bc it makes me feel VALUED and to just overall apologize for leaving me alone on my birthday. he didn't understand and I js continued to get mad. fast forward the day after that I look on tt and go on his acc for whatever reason and I see he's matching w someone. I ask him who he's matching w and he conceals their identity by telling me it's js a friend and that I dont know them. I press on and he admits it's a girl. now I've been knowing he has friends that are girls and I will admit I am not fond of that however I TRUSTED HIM. and him matching with another girl behind my back broke me. I accused him of micro cheating and completely went ballistic. I wrote paragraphs of everything I was feeling including the b day situation and he still didnt understand...! he also had the audacity to lmk that he basically told me but he didnt! I had to come after him to tell me bc ik if I didnt ask about it I would never find out abt the matching. also to preface this, I know im an insecure person and get super jealous and have black and white thinking in these situations so thats why I js need to hear others ppl thoughts. lmk what u think guys am I like insane..