u/DeadCornHusker

Naltrexone effective again. I get my Kokanees cold as ice and I can’t even have a sip without gagging. Struggling to cough down the 3rd one on the patio right now. I’ll get some sort of buzz tonight I swear to god.

Even earlier at my favorite sushi place, I had their sake margarita bomb, it’s like slushy strawberry goodness. I could barely finish the jug. Took me like 2 hours and gave a glass to the mrs when usually I down that shit in 20 minutes and order 2 more.

Won’t be hungover tomorrow at work, but fuck I could’ve enjoyed tonight.

In an employers market, this just really don’t care about you or how you feel.

3 rounds of intense interviews, studied so hard, waited on pins and needles, said they’d have an answer to me by last Friday. Nothing. Emailed them today and nothing. I don’t know why so many employers string you along once they choose someone else. Backup in case they get into wage negations?

The amount of time they demand from you to only go cold is just infuriating. At least have the decency for a quick call “hey just not the right fit”, takes two seconds.

After a particularly bad withdrawal, I thought I would finally reach out for help. My benefits at work apparently would cover 1 month at a rehab.

I walked into HR because the previous week I got a warning for missing a ton of work when my manager was away for a month. They caught on that I was there only half the time.

In a mix of shame and post withdrawal motivation, I told the one junior HR lady about my issues as neutrally as I could. She literally gasped when I told her. Was awkward but seemed genuinely supportive.

Result: turns out my benefits won’t cover this kind of leave and there are only certain facilities that are covered. So essentially there is no easy way to take a month at a rehab.

Didn’t stop HR from alerting the heads of every department to alert them that I’m an alcoholic for “operational reasons”. I thought it was a private benefits question that wouldn’t leave that room. Guess not.

Now it’s been extremely awkward. I either have people treating me like a quiet monster or giving me the whole “I had a family member with an addiction and I understand you bro” kind of thing. I want to quit at this point. Every previous time I did this it was worse. Don’t do it, HR is not on your team, they’re on damage control.

I didn't feel anything. like 4 kraken rum (47%) doubles in 40 minutes. Australian bartender was amused, gave me that look when I was ordering the 4th. Before that like 4 mezcal margaritas, 2 triples.

Went home drank 5 beers in the shower. Ate a full medium pizza and woke up fine today. I didn't enjoy any of that and it cost $200 after tips and shit. I was celebrating and usually buy a $20 handle and frozen pizza, but it was payday and the bar felt more social.

Maybe its the Nal or im just bigger or it just doesn't click with me anymore.

They had some triple vodka special and I just drank like I would at home. Ordered 4-5 triples within the hour. I was the only customer there on a sunny day and kept on ordering more. The waiter eventually asked me if I was the liquor inspector. I said no and asked for another drink. He laughed it off, but what was he thinking? I was throwing drinks out?

Title says most of it.

I lost my remote job out of nowhere in 2022, and it took me 2 long years applying before I found a job in my field (digital marketing) but I had to move outside of Vancouver to do it. 2 years being unemployed is hell, and I lowered my bar and accepted jobs I otherwise wouldn't have, then crashed out in the first 3 months.

Now after 2 years of living in the mountains, I have used chat gpt in way that got me 3 job offers back in the city - one of which is a dream job. Tailoring resume and cover letters after having it ask me 20 questions I can honestly answer to add to it. Chat GPT on it's own kind of helped me cover the 2 years of unemployment in a clever way, which may have been hindering interviews. It used the right key words, spoke passionately, but not superficially, improved on my own words and gave a combo of resume and cover letter that did stand out.

A few years ago I tried the same thing, but the combo was pitiful and robotic. It's improved, and knowing how to use it is rather important these days.

One positive/negative thing about the market now, is that experience well outweighs education. I never went to college/university and a few years ago there was always a bit of an explanation needed. Now it doesn't matter at all. If you have some experience in the field actually doing the tasks (and more importantly, know how act in the workplace, especially in Vancouver there is a lot of unspoken etiquette that isn't taught in schools, but learned through situations on the job.

TL;DR use chat gpt correctly when applying. Degrees don't matter too much these days in certain industries.