u/DeadLivingLikeImDead

I live In a state where abortion is banned. I was betrayed and raped by someone i considered family. I am only 20 years old. I live alone & have been living alone since i was 17 and have been working since I was 15. I do not have close immediate family, i bounced in and out of the system a lot. I am utterly lost and if im being honest. I don’t want to be alive anymore. I think I’ll be a horrible mother. It feels like i just continued the broken cycle in my family, without even trying to. I don’t want to be alive anymore.