u/Dear-Pin-3513

Day 7 and the urge has gotten quite strong. I need you guys to remind me why I am doing this. The reptilian part of my brain is commandeering my logic. Would appreciate any/all replies.

Quick post. Going solid. Not feeling much of an urge at the minute but I am keeping my guard up - I’ve failed before because I thought I was in the clear. My living situation is unbearable at the minute and I am so depressed. I really do feel like if I don’t quit this time I never will.

I have just been accused of being a cheater by some guy I beat in a 30 min game. Obviously, I’m not a cheat. I played with 77% accuracy as I reviewed at the end. If he has reported me, and I haven’t cheated, will I be okay? I’m worried I will get banned from chess.com as I keep reading stuff that says they are really trigger-happy when it comes to banning.

I’ve been dealing with this problem for over a decade. I’m done with this shit. Had two relationships wrecked by sexual dysfunction. Sick of relapsing to weird fetishy porn. Determined to beat this now. Today is day 1 👊.