She was 15days old when she passed away. She was born with an unidentifiable platelet issues. She is my 2nd baby. It's sooo hard. I feel numb inside. I don't know how to process all that. Am on auto pilot mode. I have no idea how ill join work again. I no longer have any purpose. I just want to die. I can't sleep, I can't eat. The grief is horrible. How do I get over it?
My bby was born via C-section at 37 weeks old. Every scan was perfect. He was growing perfectly. Then during delivery we don't know what happened but he ended up with massive health issues. He couldn't control he's sugar level, oxygen level isn't good, bp isn't good, convulsions, kidney wasn't working properly. He didn't cry when he was born. He crashed and ended up in NICU. Am getting discharged today and I have no idea how am supposed to leave him here all alone in the NICU. I've been crying non stop for the past 5days. Every morning and night am crying. Am not even sure that he will make it. How do you cope with all that?