I stopped praying
I tried to pray for someone I don't like. My stepfather drinks almost daily and makes my family's life a living hell, he doesn't respect my mother and doesn't like my sister (he probably doesn't like me either). My family is christian and we go to church together for almost 5 years or something.
There's a lot behind it, but basically, for those 5 years he would leave the church and come back constantly, not taking it seriously... but now it seems like he doesn't want to go back at all.
My pastor said I should pray for him, but it got to a point where my resentment towards him is so great that I can't. I don't want to pray for him, I don't want anything involving him. I feel that when I pray for him, it's fake on my part, and I don't feel good about it. So I just stopped. I know the bible say we should pray for people like that, but i just can't.
Am i sinning? being selfish?