u/DeathofTheEndless45

I've realised as of late that I'm only really around because other people need me.

I've stopped hobbies, stopped going out to be with people because nobody really wants me around. Don't have anything going in terms of things that make me happy anymore.

And I’m well aware my life expectancy is shorter because of how this awful country views us as monsters.

Tired of all of it. And I'm well aware that the only thing keeping me from slipping is that other people need my help.

But it's not enough.

Still yet to find my place in the trans community as well. Have attempted to set up my own community but RSD just makes that too difficult.

I don't know how to make things better.

Hi there.

So often I'll ask around online about community and often get told "If you build it they will come" but I'm yet to see it.

I'll advertise a group whether online or in person. Post around on multiple subreddits, get the word out at other places etc.

And people will jump at the chance.

Only to not show up.

Irl you're sat in the venue on your own for multiple weeks.

Online like 20-50 people will join a Discord sever only to just lurk and never engage.

I'm just feeling lonely and I get told "Make your own" when it comes to making the community I don’t have.

And I am willing to put in the work to build a place because I know I'm not the only person who feels as I do but y'know.

It's just

Not

Working.