Joy and interest "wearing off" over time?
Did anyone else ever experience this?
Nowadays I rarely enjoy anything. But when I was younger, I would sometimes find things I was interested in, or even enjoyed doing, but it never lasted long. I would try out a new hobby or something, or read about a topic, and I enjoyed it. But it all faded very quickly. It was almost like, every time I did the thing, I enjoyed it a bit less. Until no joy was left and the thing had become just as boring as everything else. Some things wore off after only a few times of doing them, others lasted slightly longer.
It's almost like my brain gets used to any feeling of joy very quickly, and then starts correcting itself back to the baseline. Like getting used to a drug until it doesn't work anymore.
Sometimes I think this mechanism is behind it all. My brain just wants to feel nothing, and keeps dialing things down to what it thinks of as the "base level". I cannot feel joy, because when I do, my brain changes the threshold.
This is also why my anhedonia slowly gets worse as I age: The older I get, the more things I've tried, and the more things have worn off already. Finding and feeling anything new and "fresh" becomes harder and harder, and once something has worn off, I can never enjoy it again.
I don't know if the same would happen with interpersonal feelings as well, I've never gotten this far. Would be interesting to know if I have the same problem with other types of feelings, but I can't tell.
Not sure if any of that is a schizoid thing, or even real, but... Anyone else?