random waves of overwhelming feelings
since graduating highschool my anxiety has hit and all time high. every little thing throughout my life sends me into fight or flight, even just thinking of things too. i went to a psychologist for a short time (but i can no longer afford it) and she deemed it most likely i have harm OCD as well as some type of anxiety disorder, as i often have violent dreams about my friends or love ones dying in horrific ways and i’ve always had to do things a certain way or amount of times or made “rules” for myself that made me feel like those bad things won’t happen (this is the compulsions). but that’s not why im posting here, i often have been feeling very sudden waves of some overwhelming feeling and then bursting into tears. i could be having a good day, driving with my fav song playing and out of nowhere i burst into tears and if i try to hold it back, it just makes it worse. ive always been an emotional person, but i feel like ive become detached from emotions when i should be sad (like at a funeral or something) and i feel not much at all but then ill cry out of no where for no reason at all? can someone surely help me understand wtf is going on? i guess its a question in this post but also a bit of a vent. i just don’t think that anyone in my circle understands how i feel.