Confused and unsatisfied with life
Im currently 21 and feeling like I have nothing going for me. I have failed several classes, and for some reason, I cannot bring myself to balance everything out. When I’m working, I struggle to juggle school and studying along with it. The transition from high school to college hit me harder than I could’ve ever imagined. I had a 3.8 gpa in high school because nothing was accelerated. Yes, I am at 50/60 credits but I am in a smart plan with MDC meaning I have already failed a class twice. I’m a stubborn person and I tell myself even if I’m shit at school, I can at least get my AA. However, I previously failed statistics, business calculus, and financial accounting. I cannot say I was smart about it because I would basically only complete homework assignments and rawdog the exams. I fail to grasp information. I even thought to myself I might have ADHD but who knows since I would hate to self diagnose. There’s been countless amount of times I zone out in class, not even an hour in. I am unsure how I can get tested since I grew up being taught that such things didn’t exist. This summer term, I have chosen to retake college algebra along with statistics. I told myself that if I still manage to fail it’s because it’s simply not meant for me. I strongly believe I’d come back to college I don’t care if I’m 25 or 35. I continue to compare myself to others even knowing that everyone’s path is different. For example, my wonderful boyfriend. He is so driven & if anything he struggles on what passion to choose first. I wish I could say the same but I have NO passion. I could go on and on about myself but as a daughter of an immigrant, if I need to become a soldier tomorrow, I will. I am heavily considering enlisting as e-3 and just let my mindset get stronger. Anyway, If I could get another’s perspective of my life or any advice, I’d deeply appreciate it.