my(20F) boyfriend(26M) we argue a lot
My bf and I argue a lot often including how much of a time duration we should kiss, the position we wanna sleep in, making out together, every little thing you name it likeee who should caress the other and what not even for selecting a spatula would be a fighting tournament in my mind tbh.
today i bought a cat over and he doesn't like cats but I love cats( we don't own any cats) it was a neighbourhood cat and my bf tried touching it and played with the cat. the cat name is lucky(he's so squishy)btw. somehow the cat went under the table in living room and I just went and catched the cat and when I was about to put it back on the couch, it was on my bf's way, he shouted at me saying "why'd you keep on having the cat near me??". i told him I didn't wanted to do it intentionally I just wanted to leave the cat back on the couch and i went quiet and returned the cat to my neighbour.
i really don't know whether the shouting was necessary, I'm aware he's scared of the cat but he literally played with the cat for like 25 mins and he enjoyed it. he didn't even try to acknowledge the fact that he shouted at me :((
few days back I just went to my female friend's home, I left around 8:15pm and returned back at 10:15pm, I forgot my phone at home and when I came back and i locked the door thinking i would return in a few minutes, i wasn't aware he was scared that I got lost or smth unfortunate might've happend to me and when I entered the room
i told him "love you and I'm sorry", he was mad and was saying these(why were you late? I'm scared, i called my friend to come over to find you) and he started to hit me , I got slapped thrice very hard tbh, I was so scared and I felt helpless, I just wanted to get out of the room and when I tried doing it he locked the door for room, also the front door, he didn't even handed me my phone, and I hit him back after asking him i wanna do the same and he agreed to that.
I'm really scared whether my bf will change or not, he keeps on saying he'll change and he feels sorry for what he did and i cried to me twice. he used to be abusive in his past relationship with his ex(f). i really do believe him that he'll change for the better of our relationship but in the back of my mind i always think what if he doesnt and he will lay his hands on me when I do smth wrong or create inconvenience to him :(( .
TL;DR
bf(26m) is becoming abusive and i(20f) think he won't change even after making promises