Need advice and help
TDLR; mom found out about “lesbian reels” on my phone and idk what to do
For context, I follow a lot of gay/ sapphic Instagram accounts on my alt. It’s usually hidden and nobody really snoops in my phone. This evening, I was getting ready to go out for a bit and I was on call with my sister. My mom saw then she said that she wanted to talk to her. I was in a hurry so i gave her my phone to talk, forgetting that it was unlocked.
I get ready and come back to get my phone and see that she plopped it on the table like she was caught red handed. I took my phone to see that my ig account was open and she may have seen some things that she’s referring to as, “lesbian reels.” She immediately confronted me saying that I shouldn’t be watching this stuff and this is probably going to influence me into being a lesbian (which i already am.) That i should remember that I’m Indian and this stuff doesn’t exist here…. I gave an excuse that it was probably some influencer doing some shit for clout thing then i ran off.
She calls my sister and asks her about it. My sister knows that I’m a lesbian, i have been out to her since 2019. My mom told her that i was watching lesbian stuff and Korean stuff, my eating of chicken and eggs caused my hormones to fluctuate ??????? And is making me want love from a woman?????????? My sister turned it around on her that she shouldn’t have been going through my phone in the first place, it wasn’t her right. My mom argued back that it is her right as my parent. I’m 22 btw. “Things should be transparent among kids and parents” to which my sister said that it works in a situation where parents are supportive.
I graduated college recently and i took all the exams for master’s degree where I didn’t perform well. She thinks it is because of this reason…I’m in an extremely fragile place and if she tries some shit, she’ll probably make me do my master’s at home which I would rather die than staying in this place.
So yea idrk what to do. I’m scared but at the same time, i cannot really give a fuck about this. I always knew that they weren’t gonna support me and it’s not like i have a partner anyway. Doing master’s away from them was the only way I was gonna get out of here and maybe find someone to love but what’s the fucking point of everything anyway.
I’m currently hiding away in my room. I wanted to return to our hometown tomorrow where I’d be alone but she’s asking me to stay. I make one wrong move and she’ll make a huge drama out of this…so any advice would be great