r/wlwIndia

I didn't know how much noise I was carrying,

until you made a quiet room inside your chest for me.

I have always been the one who stays,

the one who holds others together.

You asked me when was the last time someone stayed for me.

I had no answer.

There is something holy about how you look at me,

like I'm not too much or too soft, just enough.

Your hands know how to hold without fixing.

And then the adorable parts

how you scrunch your nose when you lie,

how you steal all my hoodies and then say you don't,

how you look at me over your coffee like I'm your favorite song.

You kiss my forehead like it's a promise you intend to keep.

In a world that taught us to apologize for loving women,

we don't whisper here.

We make coffee, we argue about songs, we exist.

And that feels like a revolution I want to live in,

with you, every ordinary morning.

This is a follow up from my post yesterday and things are gearing up!

Sapphic women in Mumbai please dm me if you’re like to attend meet ups and meet to date people or even have a community.

How I will be going about - verifying that you’re a sapphic woman on telegram (just to catch cis men trying to catfish) and a group there, depending on the people we will set up a meet-up in the coming days. I do not want to make any profit or anything off this, you do not have to pay anything.

Please dm me with a short info, I will not be responding to a ‘Hi’ and be willing to verify with pictures.

Some rules were going to follow

1. Above

18

1. No discriminatory behaviour allowed.
2. Please talk and engage with people on the group or else I will be removing you, we want an active group.

someone like a hot coffee in the early mrg

Mods approved Saturday.

Hi. I am a 21F from a landlocked state in India. Not Delhi. Obviously. Fuckass MP. 😭

I’m a STEM girlie, which sounds impressive until you ask me what I’m doing with my life and I start staring at the wall.

Anyway, I have decided my solution is to find a slightly older woman in STEM and simply… attach myself to her.

Looking for:

• woman
• sapphic
• 22/23+ preferably
• STEM girlie
• emotionally stable enough to tell me what I’m doing wrong with my life
• willing to let me bother her with random thoughts at 2am
• capable of saying “come here” in a way that makes me forget every problem I have

I can offer:

• questionable humour
• oversharing after approximately 3 conversations
• enthusiastic “wait listen to this” messages
• moral support
• compliments that may or may not become suspiciously frequent
• absolutely no useful adult-life knowledge
• a potentially devastating crush if you’re nice to me

I would like to clarify that this is mostly an innocent search for friendship, guidance and someone who has figured out adulthood slightly before I have.

The “I will probably think you’re insanely attractive and develop a crush” part is unfortunately a known software bug.

Anyway, if you're a STEM sapphic with a soft spot for chaotic younger women from unfortunate geographical locations… hello. I am the geographical location. 😭

Okay this might sound stupid but… I just want some women friends 😭
Like actual friends. Someone I can randomly text “look at this dumbass meme,” go for coffee, go on bike rides/drives, yap about absolutely nothing, make questionable plans at 11pm and somehow become emotionally attached to each other’s playlists.
I’m WLW, but not looking to jump into anything romantic. I genuinely miss having that easy “omg wanna hang out?” kind of friendship.
Making friends as an adult is basically just two strangers silently wondering if the other person is also looking for friends 💀
So yeah. Consider this my awkward little friendship application.

Trust me, I have been in love. I liked the view I had of you when you scrolled through your phone to show me a photograph from your gallery. You were looking at the screen, and I was looking at you. I think that was when I fell for you.

I noticed that whenever I was with you, I would open my notes app and start writing about you. I think that was when I fell in love once again. This time, it was not only with you.

>The heel you placed first, then the next one.
Oh, you hated spice.
The broken streetlights.
The corner of the city.
The absurdly cold chai.
The guitar tune that was a little too high.
The differential equations you couldn't solve.
You know, I learnt maths all over again just to teach you.
That is when I fell in love with maths too.

You made it to my Notes app. Does that mean I can count on you? A love that is mine, forever and true.

>And when you love someone, you know how to find them everywhere. In little things. In songs and colours you once hated. In rattling of leaves and squeaking of mice which sounds kinda mellifluous to your ears because her memory contaminated them. You begin to think the universe has something to do with you. And it is in these observations that you find you not only fell in love with that person, or even with the version of them you have in your head, but with everything that arrives with them too.

>You love the way her bangs fell over her cheeks.
The way she rests her head on your shoulders.
The way she walks a little faster so as not to fall behind you.
The way she locks her eyes with yours.
Everything unrelated to her becomes a part of her too.

All this, and still you say I just didn't fall for you. How could I not?

If I lived in a hundred worlds, in everyone of them, I found you. I loved you in this world. I'll love you in some other world too.

© SR

Trigger warning: homophobia

Maybe it’s because I don’t have queer friends, but it’s such an isolating experience. I think a lot about how I come across to people who don’t know about my sexuality: Will I be ostracised by them if they get an idea? Will they tell other people? Will it change our relationship?
And on the opposite end of the spectrum I have people who do know that I’m gay and supposedly accept me, but at the same time, will stereotype me, “I’m so glad to have a gay friend” “all man hating women are lesbians” I’ve heard this so many times.
Moreover being a woman, guys who found me attractive previously somehow feel so personally offended that I’m into women, they’ll say any and everything.

But I think the worst part of it is with my straight women friends. I can see they get visibly uncomfortable in certain occasions, like I had a friend in my mutual friend group who was talking about her boyfriend and the stuff that she did with him, and I just walked into the room and she stopped and said that she doesn’t want to say it in front of me, I didn’t even know what they were talking about before the rest of my friends called her out for it, but she just doubled down.

It’s not that I wanted to know it or that I’m some kind of a weird pervert, and I had barely interacted with that girl. But god it feels so shitty to be excluded for something that’s out of my control. I don’t understand why my sexuality has to make other people uncomfortable. I’m not going around shouting it out or hitting on every girl I see, I’m not even telling people that I’m a lesbian, it’s only when the topic comes up, but somehow it just becomes the topic of conversation every time after that like I’m not an individual beyond my sexuality.

It’s just so isolating, I can’t talk about my past relationships as freely as heterosexual people, heck I can’t even talk about my crushes. And it really doesn’t help that India’s so homophobic. My ex was so scared of her mother finding out, she could only imagine a future with a man. My situationship after that told me that we have no future and eventually she’ll just settle for an arranged marriage.

But what about people like me then? Who don’t feel any attraction for men. I’m not trying to biphobic, but I felt so helpless when my ex broke up because she envisioned a family with a guy that her mother approved of. What could I have even said to stop her, all I could think of was at least one of us gets to live a “normal life” or wtv.

I’m just honestly tired.

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Waited 8 months just for the hot scene between Anne Hathaway and Dakota just to see it probably has been cut.???

And filled with straight sex on repeat 🤮 showering the man with so much love.

And so male centred like it was made for the male gaze. A man always being the one getting loved getting sex from hot women, getting his needs met, getting to be vulnerable while the women were put against each other.

What a waste and why was the need to queerbait😭

Now have to recover from all this and try not to connect this to my reality.