I can't help but crave an older figure to pamper me and guide me throughout everything. Because my mom never had the maturity and was occupied with her own problems like her OCD and depression disorder.
My dad, he is narcissistic asf but acts nice once in a while so I feel guilty for hating him. He acts cool towards me whenever our family is around but ignores me after they leave. Takes out his anger on me or my mom(through emotional abuse). Once, his favourite political party didn't win so he used it as a chance to degrade me, and said some horrible things about myself. I can't stay away from him because I'm still dependent on him (still haven't finished school) and there is no privacy at all in my house and I just want to show him how much of a loser he is. But i also don't know if I can be independent after school, I have never been responsible or tried to do things on my own because of my parents way of parenting. It's hard growing up like this, and now he blames me for being too dependent.
BUT I'D NEVER BE LIKE HIM. I WON'T TURN OUT TO BE A FAILURE THAT HE IS EXPECTING.
He is narcissistic asf but acts nice once in a while so I feel guilty for hating him. He acts cool towards me whenever our family is around but ignores me after they leave. Takes out his anger on me or my mom(through emotional abuse). Once, his favourite political party didn't win so he used it as a chance to degrade me, and said some horrible things about myself. I can't stay away from him because I'm still dependent on him (still haven't finished school) and there is no privacy at all in my house and I just want to show him how much of a loser he is. But i also don't know if I can be independent after school, I have never been responsible or tried to do things on my own because of my parents way of parenting. It's hard growing up like this, and now he blames me for being too dependent.
BUT I'D NEVER BE LIKE HIM. I WON'T TURN OUT TO BE A FAILURE THAT HE IS EXPECTING.