still not over LO
I deleted my original post out of embarrassment but I needed to come back. it’s been a month since I spoke to LO and I’m still not okay.
I met LO on a dating app last summer while I was out of the country. we spent a few days texting, met up, had sex. it was wonderful we spent the night cuddling and talking. the next day he brought me this beautiful tea cup set (his country is known for them) and a bunch of other cute little gifts. we spent another night together and he took me to the airport. we texted almost every day for like 3 months after that and then he just… went silent. it hurt so much. I really missed his messages.
3 months after he disappeared I told him I was coming back to his country. he responded so warmly. and when I went back it was even more intense than before, expensive dinners, cuddling on the beach, i mentioned how much I loved hiking and he got some some shoes to hike in :( he said he couldn’t wait to see me again.
then I flew home. silent again. I reached out (I know) and he wrote back. I even sent him a photo and he said I looked cute and then just… nothing.
now I’m watching his WhatsApp last seen like it’s my actual job. he’s on occasionally… just not talking to me. I want to fly out to his country again and see him.
he made me feel so beautiful and desired in a way I really wasn’t feeling in real life. i never thought someone as attractive as LO would even like someone like me.. I just don’t know how to make this stop hurting I keep asking myself what I did wrong…