u/DeltaPi78

i shouldn't have got my hopes up...

i'm starting to realise that my "not caring about my look" was just me not feeling comfortable with any masculine look

i am not lying when i say i haven't brushed my hair in years, unless you count running my fingers through it occasionally, and i don't do that often either

before my brain registered that it was me in the mirror, for a split-second i saw GIRL

makes me realise how lucky i am to have a kinda girly look already, i haven't even come out yet :3

30 minutes into being home alone and im already wearing my 9 year old sister's shirt

i'll refer to each of my friends as T, S, Z, J and V

quick summary of each of them

T - probably my closest friend in the group, definitely not homophobic, has hinted at being bisexual, mostly a decent guy

S - bit of an asshole, acts quite entitled, only really still friends because we have been for years

Z - pretty loud, strong muslim, has an interest in quantum physics, yet doesnt believe in evolution for some reason?

J - asshole, only there because hes friends with Z, really annoying, bothers me and T

V - asshole, also only really there because hes friends with Z, right wing conservative christian, definitely homophobic, tried to excuse J indirectly causing my laptop screen to break with "you were being antisocial so he was angry"

this has been in a suspicion ive had for a while, but my fears are starting to come true

today at school, V randomly asked (as he does) if we believe that people can change genders, and if we believed in only 2 genders

he's done similar before, but with being gay, and thats how i know T isn't homophobic, because he argued against V

i dont tend to listen to these short arguments, but this time, everyone agreed, at very least that there were only 2 genders, and that non-binary people didn't exist

i didn't hear anything else, but its very possible that they're against trans people in general

now, you can probably assume from various observations that i am transfem, and have not come out yet

it's probably possible to convince at very least T to, y'know, not be transphobic

i have other friends who would most likely support me, but i dont want to drop this friend group just yet because T snagged tickets for all of us to watch the amazing digital circus finale and id obviously like to go

also, its weird how they dont believe in non-binary people, yet watch the amazing digital circus, which has a literal non-binary charatcer?

my question is, what points should i make to attempt to convince them they're wrong?

oh and can i get ggd plssss (monica she/her)

i technically have one more exam but i know its gonna be really easy

i just need some ggd to get me going again