r/egg_irl

To start, I know well that autogynephilia is full of shit but I just can't help but feel like there's a grain of truth to it.

Basically, when I was 11~12 I'd started masturbating, but not to nothing, but rather to the idea of being a girl. 0 romantic or sexual elements, just a variety of scenarios in which I would be, first forcefully, then willingly turned/dressed female. A good example is how in one my female classmates would take me, dress me up and arrange me such that I would be a girl and integrate me as one of their own, that was enough for me for years and years on end, way before I knew what sex or anything remotely similar was.

And yet I still feel like it fits the definition which horrifies me, I know being an autogynephile doesn't disqualify you from transitioning and being yourself, but the brain-worms are telling me it makes me not trans "enough"

Honestly at this point I don't know what to think, I have plenty of other evidence I think fits but this is my absolute earliest one and the thing that I remember most vividly and concretely, I think I would even dream about this stuff.

is my writing legible :3 else i’ll repost with plain text

Context:

My friend recently told me she was trans (that made me so happy because I’m transmasc myself and I think she is the first trans friend I’ve ever made :’)) and she has recently send me all her outfits and what she wants to wear and stuff (I’ve tried to help her with my limited knowledge on fem stuff)

She recently asked me to forcefem her, and here I am asking…. How do I do that?? I mean, I can’t make her wear fem stuff because right now I’m outside the country, but I’m here to ask for ideas on how to make a girl feel happy :3

Im asking you girls what should I do to make my friend happier (and forcefem her???? How do I do that 😭) I need ideas ;A;

Thank you in advance

EDIT: Sorry if I used the term forcefem, I didn’t know it represented a form of violence. She did use that word, but I don’t want to force anyone to do anything. I just wanted to be more supportive and see what would be the best ways to be affirming. Thank you for all the comments, and sorry if I worded it incorrectly

Hi there, it's wordart person again. To those of you whom have already come out, did the "get less and less obvious about being trans and try less and less to hide it" method work for you if you did it? Sorry if this is a stupid question

:3

I wanna be her I wanna be her I wanna be her I wanna be her I wanna be her I wanna be her I wanna be her I wanna be her I wanna be her I wanna be her I wanna be her I wanna be her I wanna be her I wanna be her I wanna be her I wanna be her I wanna be her I wanna be her I wanna be her I wanna be her I wanna be her
(but i don't wanna be a maelstrom cyborg from cyberpunk cuz it sucks)
(her name is talia yang from cyberpunk edgerunners 2 i think)

Do you ever get used to it?

on top of the dysphoria it is also going to be 30 degrees celsius and takes place inside a tent

godspeed to my fellow besties who have to endure another year of this

I know that, in the end, I'm the only one who can answer this question, but I’d still really appreciate some kind of benchmark or advice. I’ve been asking myself this constantly over the last few days. I’m still not 100% sure, but overall, I do think I'm trans. Even though I’m not always fully convinced myself and constantly second-guess everything, I still feel like I probably am.

Does that mean my egg has cracked? Because you’re supposed to be completely sure of it, right? The thing is, I feel like I can't even be 100% sure right now because I'm way too restricted in terms of expressing myself, and everything is just taking way too long.

I really want to try out the next steps, but for example, my hair just won't grow as fast as I want it to. I also can't really make my body look more feminine without HRT, and since I still live with my parents, I can't truly explore things anyway. How am I supposed to ever feel sure like this?

Also, can I get some GGD please (Nova, She/Her)? I think that would distract me a bit from overthinking all of these thoughts constantly.

I feel like crying genuinely

i had to do work experience this week, meaning i had to wear a shirt and stuff all day and i really hated it

the highlight of the week was when someone called me "young lady" before being quickly "corrected" since i have long hair

So I work in a male dominated field, I am so tiered of having to hide who I am because of this. I have just done some gender affirming care for myself, and thinking of starting hrt. Can I get some GGD?