I’m playing CTGP Nitro (a Mario Kart DS mod) for the first time and wanted to make a fun custom emblem for it, so I made a trans flag Shy Guy mask (because Shy Guy was made fully playable in the mod, since for whatever reason he was exclusive to DS download play in OG Mario Kart DS) and put the pride flag in the background. I hope y’all like it and also hope y’all have a great day. :3c
I feel like such an idiot and coward for the situation I’m in. I came out to my close family already like a year ago, but it didn’t go nearly as well as I hoped. One family member who’s MAGA told me he didn’t agree with it, another told me they support me but I should hide that part of me because of the political climate in America (but even in private they don’t acknowledge it), yet another didn’t acknowledge it but they don’t always get my messages so I don’t know if they’re choosing to ignore it or just didn’t see it, and two of them who were accepting seem to have forgotten, and I don’t know if they think that I don’t feel that way anymore or if they just didn’t care, but I don’t know if I have the strength to go through it again. I feel like it’s all my fault, that I didn’t do it right, that I failed being open with them, and now it feels like I have all these feelings all bottled up that I just can’t feel anything anymore. I was going to try and start DIY HRT and then come out again when I started making progress, but the gift cards that I got from Christmas and my birthday don’t convert to crypto so that’s out of the picture. I want to start a job so I can start saving up money for it but then I feel like it wouldn’t matter, that even if I did start HRT and did get a job, I still wouldn’t be good enough to be acceptable. I know I’m probably just being paranoid but it feels so hard to be open with my family, it feels like I shouldn’t do the things I want to do because it feels like my family doesn’t want me to do them, not most of them anyways. It just feels like what I want doesn’t matter, that I don’t deserve to be happy. Sorry about all this, it’s just… it’s been really weighing on me and I really needed to say something. I don’t know if anyone has any advice or encouraging words or anything, but if not that’s ok, you don’t need to (I probably don’t even deserve it anyways). Sorry again for whining, I hope whoever’s reading this has a great day.
- Dess
Got a bit burnt but oh well, still tasted really yummy. What I did was I used my normal recipe (which you can see on my previous pancake posts) and used both chocolate milk and two hot cocoa mix packets together, which combined to make a really chocolatey taste. :3c
Sometimes I fantasize about getting bitten by an animal girl which ends up turning me into an animal girl. I start crying in her arms, finally happy that I’m finally a girl, that I’m in a body that I can finally be happy in, and she comforts me, letting me know that everything will be alright.
Again, sorry if this is stupid or cringe or whatever, might delete later if I end up thinking it’s stupid.
Also could I potentially get some “good girl” or “good doe” messages, dysphoria has been kicking me down hard recently and some affirmations would be nice…
I decided to try something different with these ones since I didn’t have chocolate milk which I usually substitute for regular milk, so I instead made some hot chocolate and used that in the mix and it was really good! Also, if anyone wants the recipe, here it is!
Dess’ Desslicious Pancakes:
1 1/2 cups of flour (bread flour is fine if that’s all you have).
3 1/2 teaspoons of baking powder.
Three shakes of salt (give or take depending on how much you want).
1 3/4 tablespoons of sugar (makes it extra sweet).
1 1/3 cups of chocolate milk/hot cocoa (if you wanna get really creative then you can use both).
1 egg (;3).
About 1/4 of a stick of butter.
As much vanilla extract as you want (I don’t have a set measurement for this one, I just go with the flow).
Mix it all together and cook in a pan for around two and a half minutes on six (at least that’s what works for me, do whatever works best for you).
For anyone who wants to try this recipe, I hope you like it and enjoy the pancakes! ;3