Scared to read the Bible
I feel so lost because part of me for the past year wants to read the Bible more and grow closer and all but im just terrified after a bout of intrusive thoughts last year. Not only that but now im just scared im reading it wrong and just will never do enough and I keep letting fear win and stuff. I'm so on and off with reading and I need more words than just "keep going, just pray, I'll pray for you." I can't do this in my own strength but it feels like that exactly what everyone around me is telling me to do. I will never doubt Jesus but even when I am like I need your help im failing. People don't get that I have genuine fear. Hard to just keep plowing through that alone. Any unhinged tips? Like something that could really work and not the cliches?