is my parents behaviour normal?
(I don't know if there should be a tw?)
I'm so embarrassed to post this but I can't say anything to my mother at night, in the morning, when she's busy with papers, I can't ask to many questions, talk about my feelings or say she's wrong. these aren't maybes or sometimes they're all the time like a switch. I've kept this in mind and I try not to talk to her about things like that or at that times unless it's important but she still gets argumentative. but I feel like I'm going insane because I still try to do everything by the rulebook but it's never enough and it's quickly draining me. I've talked to her about this, we've had long draining conversations It's never worked.
and my father doesn't say much or listen at all, but I talk soooo much so I guess he's just tired of me so after I said I want to kill myself my father said I was selfish, I think that's normal because I SAW someone said this happened to them but I would never say this to anyone so I donno?
and they both also made people come into our house, hold me down and give me a exorcism as well as burning all my books I had because I was depressed before they took me to any sort of therapy. but that was 6 years ago but I'm also STILL traumatized. my mother did say some sort of apology (no sorry was involved, lol)
I'm not really asking for advice. I don't think there is any way out for me. I'm really just wondering if this is normal because my sister, my dad and my uncle say nothing. Like do similar things happen to everyone else?