I sometimes fantasize about being with men sexually when I watch straight porn if I like the guy’s face, vibe, voice, movements in penetration I will fantasize about him penetrating me and get crushes but I am not sure.
Reasons why I think I am:
\- the female body has aroused by since I was a child
\- I connect better with women
\- always mostly watched lesbian porn
\- I never really had super much interest in men as a teenager growing up (I did as a kid ) it was mostly just women even though I remember kissing a guy at 13 and I got butterflies.
\-Reasons I am confused and unsure:
\- I sometimes get flustered, giggly, have butterflies around guy and get thoughts about what if we making out right now or were laying in bed spooning and they feel nice. Happened with one of my guy friends recently who got more masculine (beard)
\- I get so giggly watching male actors in tv series like their romance scenes replaying them watching them and feel some sort of butterflies in my stomach and heart. Like John sterling in Bridgerton his voice, energy , height and face is so hot to me .
\- I was watching an dating experiment program and I found the guy cute and when he said he was horny I got that whoosh feeling under my belly
\-most of the times when I am horny it is women, but I noticed that I also sometimes masturbate to the guy in straight porn like I get turned on by his face in pleasure , how he uses his body in penetration , body hair, penis, thrusts, energy, moans, and forget the woman, imagine I am her when he thrust and that makes me horny. Like penis visually in penetration makes me horny- strapon don’t at all.
\- I was on a date with a guy when I was figuring things out and he told my hand and my heart start to beat faster and I liked flirting with him and him having his arm around me felt so bubbly like I could just sink in to his embrace and relax.(we were only on one date)