I want to kill myself
So as I spent the last two days in my dead friends home....I realized that I hate my life. Nobody loves me and I honestly want to commit suicide. the girl of my dreams left me and cut me off... i have lost everything over and over again. im 31 and have no kids of my own, I don't even have a fucking vehicle anymore. I can't find any amount of alcohol or drugs to make the pain go away because I just think about how shitty life is even more. I literally am angry at God and I want to kill myself because that means for all these years I devoted my soul, that he can never have it. for anyone reading this, true love doesn't exist. any kind of love doesn't really exist. the world only wants to use you and leave you dead on the tracks or in a room or camper overdosed and broke.