AITBA for saying I will not be sad when my dads mom dies?
I (27F) have a grandmother (84F) who is a RAGING…… well since this is related to family friendly content I’ll keep it clean but you get it. According to my father she was abusive. She would hit her kids, call them names, and she even had MULTIPLE daughters (5) JUST so that she could have a son (my father). Well you know how grandmas are usually COMPLETELY different people to their grandkids than their children? Yea not the case for this woman. Not only did she call my little sister a “disappointment” when my mom and dad found out that she was a girl but she also SO OBVIOUSLY favors my little brother. She even gave him her house in her will instead of her OWN DAUGHTER who allowed her to move into a trailer placed on HER LAND. Growing up she once slammed me against a wall and called me a b¡$ch for keeping the door open for too long while talking to my dad. And then after my parents divorced she constantly talked ill of my mother and how “awful she was to her precious baby boy”. My husband and I have even agreed to keep interaction between her and my daughter to a MINIMUM like once a year at Christmas IF THAT. Any way I could tell a million stories about how awful this woman is and all the things she did but I’ll cut to the chase. My mom and two sisters were out walking when my younger sister said how awful it is that my dad and aunt were talking about putting my grandma into a nursing home because their lives are busy and the don’t have time to always be babysitting my grandma. She has possible early onset dementia and needs more help, attention, and protection that my father and aunt can’t provide for her right now. My mom said that she is still their mother and that you should always have respect for them and always take care of them as they took care of you. And in our religion (we are Christians) it’s very important to honor our father and mother. They were going on and on and on and I chimed in and said “I completely thinks it’s acceptable to put her in a nursing home considering the level of help she needs and because she was a raging Cee U Next Tuesday most of her life” and when they said that was awful to say and that I would miss having a grandmother one day I said “not her, I don’t think that I will even cry at her funeral. I’ll cry for my dad cause I’m an empath and will probably cry for my dad and his feelings, but I will NOT cry because she is dead”. Though my feelings are still the same I can’t help feel bad for what I said especially infront of my mother and sister and that she is still my grandmother. We did have a few good times when I was a kid. So am I the bad apple?