u/DiamondHands667

My entire life has been a disappointment. I’m a failure of a human being. I’m in my 30s and I been depressed since late teens. I worked my ass off in my career, exercise, diet, etc. all just to be depressed at the end of the day. I never found love, even a friend, and struggle with loneliness. I’m waiting for my parents to pass before I exit early, but it may be some time for that. So now I just exist. Im struggling a lot…

31 years old and life sucks! I been depressed for 10 years, stuck in a dead end job, I have zero friends, I never found love, and struggling with other stuff. I’m wondering why the universe created me? To struggle for eternity? I don’t want to continue life but am wondering what to do?

Is life worth living when you’re depressed? I used to think it was. I thought depression was just a temporary thing and one day I would be happy. Boy was I wrong. Life ended up shitty, I got stuck in a dead end job, never found love, have zero friends, etc. I’ve been depressed for 10+ years!!!! I tried to do things that would make me happy. I tried solo traveling, exercise, hobbies, etc. I really struggled with self love so I had to put in some work!! All the work never paid off, while I saw other people without depression wake up naturally happy. I know it’s good not to compare yourself to others, but it’s hard not too when you’re life went down the gutter.

I’m wondering why the universe brought me here?! To suffer for eternity? I used to pray to the universe/God for assistance and guidance but never received any. Now I’m saying fuck God! I don’t want to continue this life anymore if I can be honest. It’s hard when you have family, I don’t want to hurt them, but at the same time, I don’t want to suffer forever. It’s a tough spot to be in.

Do you think life is worth living when you’re depressed?

It’s funny how I failed in Every aspect of life. I never found love, don’t have friends, stuck in a dead end job, living with my parents, struggling with depression, loneliness and addiction.

Can’t lie I tried my best but failed badly. Life got dull and repetitive a long time ago. I thought if I stuck it out life would get better. I don’t want to continue this life to be honest. I just want to be free from my burdens and have my soul at peace.