u/DifferentAd9067

Hey, I'm 19F and I struggle a lot with social isolation. I was home schooled since I was 15 due to depression and anxiety, now I have no idea how to reenter society and start adult life. I'm also obese (working on it) which is a huge part of why I'm so scared to leave the house. I've always been bigger and with years I reached the point of being disgusted with myself, being extremely self concious when outside and feeling like a less of a human being, like I'm worse than everyone around me. I've been in therapy for years and still am, but not much changed. Anyone has any ideas what I could do to get out of this stagnated state?

Just finished the end of evangelion like an hour ago. No other piece of media has ever pissed me off and frustrated me this much. Got me feeling like one, giant, dumb jellyfish without the ability to grasp what in the hell I witnessed. Trying to decipher it makes me want to bang my head against a wall.