Crisis of confidence
I have been cosleeping with my 6mo since birth and I love it. When she started rolling, I really leant into this way of life and we set up a double floor bed in her room and her and I moved in there about 3 weeks ago. I have been so happy and sure about my decision to parent in this way, feed to sleep and support/comfort my baby whenever she needs however this last week I'm questioning myself a bit. Instagram doesn't help with all the spam about baby sleep and how by 6 months they should be sleeping 8 hours independently blah. I then have a lot of mums from my baby group saying their babies are sleeping through, or they are sleep training. Meanwhile, my little girl has just cut 2 teeth and has become even more of a boob barnacle than ever before. She's waking more and more for milk, not less! I've started to panic that I've made a rod for my own back with giving her such a feed/me there to sleep association. She used to be able to self soothe pre 4 month sleep regression but now she needs boob or me. I know this is biologically normal and I genuinely believe she is such a happy and content baby because she feels safe and secure and that is wonderful. I wouldn't be able to parent any other way as "responsive" parenting feels instinctive to me and I naturally fell into it. I just think im feeling particularly sleep deprived at the moment and last night on the millionth wake I thought, should I have set up this floor bed and committed to this or should I have got a cot? Am I actually waking her up more by being here and naturally moving in my sleep etc? I feel a bit stuck on a loop of questioning things and then rationalising, then questioning again 🔁
I guess I just could do with a bit of solidarity and reassurance from people in the same boat 🫶