My ex cheated on me... mas tinamaan yung ego ko kesa yung puso ko
Problem/Goal:
My ex-girlfriend cheated on me, okay lang sakin pero hindi kaya ng ego ko
Context
Nagkabalikan kami ng ex ko after almost 2 years. Ako yung nang-iwan noon, so nitong nag reconnect kami, I genuinely tried to make things right. Sabi niya single siya, kakagaling lang din daw sa breakup a month before kami mag-usap ulit.
For around 2 months, halos araw-araw siya nasa bahay namin. Minsan dito pa natutulog. Chill lang kami, walang pressure, pero seryoso na yung intentions ko this time. Busy ako sa orgs at acads kaya hindi ko rin talaga pinagdudahan.
Then one day, bigla siyang nagbago. Nagtoyo out of nowhere — which was weird kasi hindi naman siya ganon even before. Kinulit ko through chats and calls kasi confused talaga ako. After 2 days ng puro unanswered messages and missed calls, may lalaking sumagot sa tawag ko around 2AM.
Doon ako literal nanginig.
Turns out… may boyfriend pala siya the whole time.
The guy asked me kung anong meron samin nung girl, and sinabi ko naman lahat honestly. Tapos sinabi niya na magkasama sila that night at tulog yung babae. I think they broke up after that, not sure.
Hanggang ngayon hindi pa rin ako kinakausap nung girl. Siguro sa hiya. Pero tangina, hindi kaya ng ego ko yung ganong ending. Hindi dahil mahal na mahal ko pa siya, kundi dahil gusto ko maintindihan paano niya nagawang magsinungaling nang ganon kaayos habang tinatanggap lahat ng effort ko.
What messes me up the most is that I treated her differently this time. Noon, puro kalokohan at libog lang bonding namin. Pero ngayong mas mature na ako, I approached her with genuine respect and intention. Akala ko pareho na kami ng wavelength.
Ngayon naiisip ko baka hookup lang talaga habol niya nung una, tapos habang tumatagal, tinuloy niya lang kahit mali kasi convenient para sakanya.
Lesson learned nalang siguro. Sometimes people come back not because they changed, kundi dahil available ka ulit.
HINGI LANG SANA AKO NG ADVICE ABOUT SA EGO KO, TANGINA NATAPAKAN TALAGA. NEVER AGAIN SA MGA BITCHES NA YAN.
Ingat kayo, kings. Stay grounded.
ADDITION:
She logged an account pa sa device ko, I saw a sex video of her that I can't unsee.
What could I possibly do? Hahaha