We all know why you’re drinking water right now, and it doesn’t have to do with being concerned about your health. We’ve seen this cycle how many times? Seems like someone’s trying to flush out their system…
I didn't get to watch G's lives last night. TBH, I didn't even want to watch her because I knew she was going to PMO so bad. BUT am I seeing this right that G also filed a PO against X? Because, WTAF. This court date populated when I was looking through the court cases today. And I didn't see this before. Girl, you lost your mind over there.
Listen, I understand everyone is upset and outraged. I am too. We’re valid in our feelings. BUT there’s eleventy million hysterical people calling every agency down there each day. It’s over 💀 at this point. And the 911 calls I’ve heard over the past few weeks tell me this.
I’ve been saying for almost 3 weeks now that the agencies are aware of what’s going on and they have what they need. I’m confident in those 2 statements. If we overwhelm them with calls everyday, they’re not going to take it seriously. Clearly, they just see this as G just being the rage baiting queen she is(sarcasm). I understand everyone is upset, but PLEASE. There are processes and procedures that need to be followed here even if you’re unhappy with how things have been handled. It’s not going to help anyone if hundreds of people keep making phone calls.
If people want to make change, we have to do it properly.
Thank you for coming to this ted talk.
Just as the title says. I have been struggling with anxiety induced BN since I was a teen. I'm not so much a binge eater, but all of the other things are correct. I have handled it okay the past few years. Finally got on anxiety meds. Had them change my meds, up my dose, and combine meds several times over the past 2 years. I think I still need to go back and be put on another med or up my dose again though. It's also been so bad that even my dentist has noticed when I go for a checkup. I also wish I had known that BN can cause receding gum lines and problem with tooth enamel. YEAH. Been suffering with that since I was 16. That in of itself gives me anxiety.
But I think this past week and a half I may have really F'ed up.
Normally, when I go through bouts like this, I can snap out of it enough within a day or so. I feel okay but fine. Enough that I can at least keep something in my system for a day. But now I really haven't had much of anything in my stomach for 11 days. And when I now try to eat a meal, I feel sick and cannot eat much at all. It's so bad that if I even eat anything remotely more than just crackers, my stomach becomes nauseous for hours and hurts. Now I'm sitting here trying to get a little goldfish in my stomach. I think it's really the only thing my stomach can take at this point.
I've lost 18-20 pounds in this time frame. I also have been super super tired. I didn't even think, when I slept 16 hours yesterday that the cause could be due to the BN and anxiety. But I honestly think it is. I also noticed I'm super super thirsty. Like could drink 4 full bottles of water and still feel thirsty.
I need no medical advice. I know where to go if I need help. But then it's a vicious cycle because I hate going to the doctor. But then I need to go to the doctor. I also probably need to get back into therapy. That would probably REALLY help me. But it's just baby steps right now.
Anxiety can be such a debilitating thing. And I feel like so many people in my life don't even understand how hard it can be living with constant anxiety. The worst part is that I don't even want to talk to my family or friends about what's going on. They notice when I dramatically lose weight quickly. They point it out and can see how sunken my face looks. BUT I just cannot even bring myself to talk to them about it because I do not think they will understand.
That's it. That's the post. I know many of us write with our entire heart and soul. My first novel, my baby, my pride and joy, is so close to being ready for publishing. But today, I sat down and wrote a short novel for a few hours that I'm publishing myself to KDP. I wrote under a pseudo-name because it is so far out of my usual genre of writing. This short novel is definitely vulgar, lewd, and wild. I didn't even want it tied to my name. Yet, it felt so good to hit publish today. I just had to share this somewhere.