8 days in nothing I will continue
Hey I (27M -2months )As a way to journal my journey, I will post every week or two , honestly I thought that letting go is the magical solution for my problem , but now i am more angry and more scared ,while I was numb couple of weeks back , hopefully it get better with time , the time I started reading the book is 35 days back , I didn't finish it ,I started applying it after reading half of the book , thinking this is it ,this is the solution for my week self esteem addiction to porn and smoking , I will say , I kept 27 days learning how to do it at least , now i think i am doing it right , relaxing , focusing on my body less about my mind , I have been regular meditator my whole life ,the best experiences I ever have was when i use appreciation after meditating I feel delicious energy but now with letting go , I am facing the monster , honestlyy body seems to identify with stress that unpack and it keep showing up and messing my day after i finish letting go session.