I just recently got invited to do my criticall test. I’m excited but I’m worried about the background check. I don’t have anything illegal but I was hospitalized recently and placed on a 5150 hold. I know that’s on my record. Will this impact my chances?
I love both of my parents and all they’ve done for me. But the one thing I can’t stand is that they are incredibly emotionally unsupportive. Especially my mom. I have a lot of anxiety issues and it reached its peak a few months back. Before I decided to hospitalize myself, I called my mom. I begged her to come see me. I knew the drive was a lot. But I just wanted my mom. She told me no and asked “what good would I do?” I responded and told her that it’s not about what you do it’s about being there. I just wanted someone I knew around me while I was going through this. I didn’t want to be alone. She told me she couldn’t because she didn’t have gas money and she refused to ask my dad. My dad couldn’t either but this was due to his car being unreliable.My mom then blamed me and told me it was my fault I moved so far away because now I have no one around me. I was a 4 hr drive away, I know that’s a lot for a spur of the moment drive but I’m still in the same state as everyone else.
So I hospitalized myself. When I got out I wanted to talk to my parents about why I was feeling the way I felt. Why I asked to see them so urgently. I was spiraling out of control, and needed someone familiar to me. I needed to tell them about my trauma I’ve been working through. My mom immediately shut the conversation down and told me I need to talk to a therapist about this not them. When first I moved away, I realized how shallow my relationship really was with her. It took a year for my mom to ask me what I did for a living even though I called her almost every day after work. My mom specifically seems to have no interest in me since I moved. She doesn’t call me for weeks at a time unless I call her first. I know she was very angry at me for moving and then refusing to move back when my lease was up the first year. It’s not like she wanted me to live with her. It’s not like she missed me that much when I visited recently. She immediately talked shit about me to my sister once I left. Describing me as mannerless because I knocked on my cousins door to say hi not realizing I was interrupting him with his gf.
I want to repair my relationship with her but I think that’s just my inner child talking. I just can’t seem to figure out if I should or not.