Why Iam 21M not being able to get move on from her 21F
Back in 2022 when I was in 12th standard preparing for NEET. There was a girl in my coaching class. I had been in that school since 6th class, but she joined in 8th class. From day one, I liked her, and later we became very good friends in 11th and 12th. At that time, everything between us was really good, but I never confessed that I liked her, and that was probably my mistake.
When 12th ended and I gave my first NEET attempt, I failed, which led me to take my first drop year. She was preparing for engineering entrance exams and joined a private university. During my first drop year, we regularly chatted because she had shifted to another city for college. But then I was unable to clear NEET in my second attempt, so I took a second drop year. At that point, I completely sacrificed my social life, and in the end, I got a good AIR and secured a government MBBS seat. But in return, I lost almost all my friends and social connections.
After that, we barely talked to each other. I met her once or twice at gatherings with common friends, but the bond between us was no longer the same as it used to be. I think maybe she doesn't care anymore, or maybe she never had the same affection for me that I still have for her. Even now, I don't see any other girl taking her place because, to me, she is different.
Now I think it's not a good idea to start the conversation again because she is in her final year of engineering, while I'm still in my 2nd year of MBBS. She will probably get placed in a few months and have a settled life, whereas I feel stuck in a loop of never-ending studies, with no income until at least 2030, while still grinding for NEET PG.
I'm still asking my parents for pocket money, and I also have no intention of forcing myself into her life. Through one of our mutual friend, I got to know that she Maybe in a relationship with a guy from her college🥀
Pls guide me to get over it ?