My family just got home from a vacation. They were gone for a week, I stayed behind because I had university work to do (I’m in my first year).
When my parents started moving around and doing things I immediately got violently anxious to the point where i started getting heartburn. Having the house quiet and being in my solitude felt really nice and now everybody’s moving around and being loud and noisy and I hate it. It makes me really anxious because everybody is so busy and I can’t just focus on myself or get a moments peace anymore.
Moving out isn’t an option unfortunately. I have a good relationship with my family but they really give me a lot of anxiety by just existing in the same space as me. My mother absentmindedly mentioned that we might have to take out a student loan that I’ll have to pay back after I finish studying. I DON’T WANT TO DO THAT!
It just makes things worse since now my head is filled with what might happen in the future. The world might end, things don’t seem like they’re going great globally right now. What if I can’t finish studying and disappoint everyone? What if I’m stuck with that debt for the rest of my life and can’t pay it off and it ruins my life?
I don’t really know what to do. I know, realistically, everything will probably turn out fine. This is just mostly about how my family being themselves causes me a great deal of anxiety.
I’m mostly looking for advice i suppose. What do I do about this situation? How do I feel less anxious over these things?