u/Dimijada12

started to feel my body going numb. I went to my husband and he said “what do u want to do” I said “I don’t know but I am scared”. Our two kids were sleeping and he wouldn’t come up with a solution so I just said “I will walk there.” (We live a block away from the hospital). I began to walk and collapsed on the side walk. I woke up to an ambulance. I am currently in the ER and they could not find anything wrong and are saying it could be chronic stress/sleep deprivation. I called my husband and agin he said “what do you want me to do.” I told him to ask the neighbors to watch the kids. He came here asked me what happened and then said he should get back to the kids. He is now texting me saying he is tired while I am still in the ER

Hi,

I just joined this group. I have been in a abusive marriage for 7 years. Two years ago the rose colored glasses came off and I realized how toxic the relationship is. We have 2 small children. I know that we can not be together and that we need to divorce but every time I bring it up, the conversation is avoided.

I could be pushing harder but in truth I am scared. I am scared of my husband getting hostile in front of the kids (he has before when I’ve brought divorce up). I am scared the affect of divorce will have on my children. My son is super attached to his father. How do you look at a 4 year old and say “Daddy is moving out”. I am scared to be alone. I have never lived alone but really I am scared of how much of an emotional reck I will be. I can’t be all mentally fucked up and be present for my kids emotions as well.

I am just so tired of living like this and every decision feels like a loss. Help.