Target trips got dangerous
Never thought i'd end up posting about a crush on reddit but here we are i guess. so there's this girl i met through a mutual friend and somehow we started hanging out in the most random ways possible. it started with one target trip because she needed candles and snacks for movie night. somehow that turned into us doing dumb errands together all the time. we'd spend like an hour walking around target judging ugly mugs and pretending we weren't both tempted to buy stuff we absolutely did not need. she has this habit of picking up random objects and acting like she's on a shopping channel which genuinely kills me every time. one time she spent five straight minutes trying to convince me to buy a tiny waffle maker shaped like a bear. i didn't buy it but i still think about that stupid waffle maker
Anyway over time i started liking her way more than i planned to. she remembers tiny details about me which honestly gets me every time. like she remembered my favorite chips after i mentioned them once weeks ago. she also sends voice messages instead of texting and i didn't realize how much that would mess with my head. hearing somebody laugh while talking to you hits different for some reason. my friends kept asking why i suddenly cared about my haircut so much and yeah okay maybe i was trying a little harder than usual. the problem is i think i waited too long to actually do anything about it
Last weekend we were getting boba and she casually mentioned she started talking to somebody from one of her classes. i literally felt my stomach drop while holding a brown sugar milk tea like an idiot. she seemed really happy though so i just acted supportive. now i'm trying to figure out how to stop turning every random memory into some emotional montage in my head. i keep remembering tiny stuff like her laughing when i almost dropped an entire bag of popcorn in the parking lot
I know crushes come and go but this one felt really real to me. i don't wanna disappear from her life because i genuinely like hanging out with her. but i also know sitting around hoping she changes her mind is probably not healthy either. does anybody have actual advice for moving on without fully cutting the person off because right now my brain is doing laps around every little interaction we've ever had