i’ve been reflecting a lot lately, and i keep coming back to this feeling that i was always treated differently compared to my siblings.
it wasn’t always obvious or something i could point to at the time, but looking back, it felt like i was the one who got blamed more, criticized more, or just… not really understood. even small things felt unequal, like how my mistakes were a bigger deal, or how my feelings were dismissed compared to theirs.
i remember constantly trying to “be better” or avoid doing anything wrong, hoping things would feel more equal, but it never really changed how i was treated.
now that i’m older, i still catch myself questioning it, like maybe i’m just overthinking or being too sensitive. but at the same time, the pattern feels too consistent to ignore.
it’s affected how i see myself more than i’d like to admit, especially when it comes to self-worth and how i think people view me.
has anyone else felt like they were the “least favorite” growing up? how did you process it later in life, and did it take you a while to accept that it wasn’t just in your head?