what do i do? am i overthinking?
when i met my baby daddy at 18, he was 35. I was living with two twins, they have beautiful eyes and are very pretty! to deny it is like wrong ya know? but they were 15/16 at the time. I tried protecting them because I went thru a lot of shit. we all worked at a barbecue place.
My baby daddy had already had weird…staring into each others eyes like, longingly?? with a girl who was like 15 (mind you i dont blame them at alll!! he’s abused me,, and lied about a lot. so now it’s hard to think he wouldn’t lie about shit like this)
i know i was an adult but i was young n stupid! i asked if she was 18 (the first girl) if he would be dating her, he said that’s up in the air he couldn’t tell. I thought he should’ve just said no, yada. But i always suspected him.
anyways, one of the twins had an aversion to 🍃 and while we were working, he offered her his pen. It was like the world stopped cuz i kept saying no for her, and i figured he would see as a sister (we referred to each other as such) and her not moving or saying anything, would indicate to back off. But he didn’t once glance at me, and kept staring at her. Like he did the first girl. I’ve brought it up to him before and he’s said he doesn’t remember.
I got back in contact with the twins as one of them just had a baby, and the one who i had to deny the pen from i haven’t rlly spoken much to. The first thing she said was “demarcus” and that’s my babydaddys joking name we made.
I get it, my baby daddy is attractive to a lot of ppl. But fr, it’s like no one sees him for the abusive prick he is. My sister talks about him like he was her dream man 😭 I’m always stuck, i feel disrespected all the time. I’ve come to terms with if he gets with someone I know n am close to I’m just dipping with my daughter to another state loll
but fr, ty for anyone who read this far. what do y’all think? idk how to feel or what to do. I would never do this to them!!