Anxious about having Social Media
I recently made an insta and the idea of actually having an online pressence tied to my face makes me so anxious.
This is really weird and I don't even know if it falls under social anxiety, but, for the longest time, I would isolate myself and kinda got used to not being perceived. I kinda improved my self though and by highschool i was less anxious about talking to people irl and got better at seeming like a normal and functioning part of society.
But, there was always a divide between me irl and online because sure, I'd talk to many people at school but I'd never talk to them outside of school much less hang out with anybody. This was probably exacerbated too cus I got a phone for the first time hella late, like 2 months ago (im 17). This didn't bother me too much tho cus i do like being alone.
Anyway, friends at school kinda pressured me into making an insta, and ig its just because i feel so far behind everyone else socially, but its genuinly so scary idk why. Like, I know that just bc I got a number and insta it doesn't mean that everybody and their moms are gonna be messaging me, and that i dont have to post anything, but the idea of being present out there is genuinly terrifying.
Even choosing a pfp is making me nervous.